Getting hurt, hurts. It’s as simple as that. Especially if it is someone close to you causing the pain. Recently I was let down by someone and I was really finding it hard to forgive them. I wanted to, I know I needed to, I know that God was asking me to. We know that anger only wears us down, so why do we stay angry? I needed some advice, so I figured why not just go to confession and talk a priest (AKA Jesus). After I was finished explaining the hurt and my inability to make it go away and forgive, he gave me some simple advice:
“Think about the last time that you hurt Jesus the way that you were recently hurt.”
After finally being open and entrusting once again, I just felt alone and lied to. I think I am only beginning to understand how I do this to Jesus daily. I tell him that I love him; that I want to give him my whole life (like I have said millions of times before). He starts to trust that I will follow through this time and that I am willing to drop all worldly things and distractions for him. He gives me his whole heart; he dies for me so that my sins may be forgiven and I can start fresh. And then what do I do? I say, just kidding I still want control; I want to do my own thing and forget about how You trusted me when I said I would give up my life for You, like You did for me. I lie to him, I leave him alone.
I couldn’t have asked for better advice. Whenever someone wrongs me and I start to feel angry, I just think back to when hurt Jesus in that way; and let’s be honest, it was probably in the last ten minutes. I can’t begin to imagine how much more pain Jesus feels when we wrong Him, way more than we have ever felt. We should all make a commitment to stop hurting Jesus, stop lying to him, stop punching him in the stomach. Thankfully, no matter what we do, He still loves us, and that alone should make us cringe at the thought of ever wronging Him.